Observation. Speculation. Alteration. Education.

“When was the last time you felt accomplished” the doctor asked. “I don’t know” I answered “there was a time that I felt accomplished in my own happiness, and that was enough, but the last time I actually felt accomplished because I did something beneficial…I think I may only feel that way when I work out, otherwise when I finish something, it’s done and over, I feel more of a relief then I do an accomplishment” “Does this m’ake you sad?” the doctor looked on with concern this time. “No” I said ” I feel nothing like that, well not by myself at least.” “And why do you think this is?”  his concern then turned to intrigue. “Again, I dont know, most of the time I’ve felt accomplished, well at least recently, is because the emotion has been cast upon me, like giving Melissa her christmas present, her smile and that look of happiness made me feel accomplished, but for me? just by myself? I…I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt that. “This, Justin, sounds to me as if there is a lack of responsibility in your own life, as if you don’t hold close the things that should actually mean something to you? does this sound at all like something you’d agree with?” “No?! not whatsoever! I disagree with that wholeheartedly” “Just hear me out Justin, this may not sound like something you want to hear but this may be the truth in things, now honestly, I want you to think about this, I’m not talking about you not caring about your friends, it’s obvious you do because you tell me that they make you feel accomplished, but by yourself, as you are, you feel that emotion doesn’t exist correct?” “yes..” “so ask yourself, why do you deny yourself this feeling of achievement?”